Posted in Crystals, Energy Work, Herbal, Spells, Spiritual Growth

Self Love Jar and Practical Magic Love Spell.

So the first one I did with Aphrodite and you can see how I made it here:

@teaheez68

A great spell for those who have PTSD and need some emotional healing. #fyp #witch #witchtok #spell #aphrodite #spelljar

♬ original sound – Tea Heez

I basically made it to help with my depression and it has! It’s great to have around while I do my morning and night skin care routine as well as when I put on make up or do any beauty activity.

My next spell jar is one that is inspired by the movie Practical Magic. When young Sally makes her love spell for someone she thinks doesn’t exist she finds that he does exist and they do fall in love and it feels organic not forced. I for one have never felt love spells for attracting a partner goes against a person’s will, and Sally’s spell is a prime example.

Below are the ingredients. Be sure that only the rose quartz, rose petal, list of qualities you’d like in a person, and rose bud are the only necessary ingredients needed everything else is subjective:

So once you have your ingredients go ahead and put them together:

Then if you like seal it!

Hope you enjoyed these spell jars! Hopefully they’ll help you. Happy witching!

Posted in Altars, Deities, Energy Work, Herbal, kitchen witchery, Oracles, Rituals, Spells, Spiritual Growth

Cannabis in My Witchcraft.

You may be thinking that I get high to astral travel, but really smoking cannabis helps me ground whilst I meditate.

I go by the meditations the book suggests then I am pulled into the astral to usually just chill with my deities and spirits but I’ve also done some work over there while high and I was able to focus more so than usual. Not saying getting high is necessary for astral travel it just helps not to get stuck there.

Some UPG correspondences are:

  • Necromancy
  • Spirit communication
  • Intuition enhancing
  • Luck
  • Euphoria
  • Enhances magickal focus
  • Zen state of mind
  • Poetic script
  • Clarity
  • Energy manipulation
  • Enhances magick

Some Deities that like it as an offering:

  • Loki
  • Hekate
  • Artemis
  • Longmu
  • LongShen
  • Tu’ Er Shen
  • Aphrodite
  • Pan
  • Athena
  • Apollo
  • Freya
  • Frigg
  • Sif
  • Thor
  • Tyr
  • Anubis
  • Isis
  • Anupet
  • Wepwawet
  • Gaia
  • Hades
  • Persephone
  • Demeter
  • Hestia
  • Brigid
  • Danu
  • Morrigan
  • Lugh
  • Yahshua (Yeshua)
  • Ganesha
  • Kali
  • Krishna
  • Ares
  • Hermes
  • Pan
  • Themis
  • Kuan Yin
  • Siddhartha Gautama
  • Dionysus
  • Diana
  • Vesta
  • And more!

I also like to use it when I do readings. Check out this reading for example:

The reading was with the Priestess of Light Oracle card deck and it was a spread for what my matron deity, Hekate, wants me to focus on. Clarifying my goals as wanting to become her priestess, her guiding me, to an abundant spiritual life. The 2nd card is her very much represented with a canine, one of her animals, and her guiding hand through my studies with her.

After that I blessed and charmed my smoke blend (recipe below) to give me clarity, guidance, and abundance. Artemis, green candle, Ganesh, the elephant statue, and Kuan Yin, statue, also blessed my herbs. The crystals are K2, Kyanite, Ruby in Kyanite, amethyst, rose quartz, labradorite, blue calcite, and selenite.

My smoke blend:

  • Cannabis – luck, enhanced magick
  • Rose bud – love, self love, abundance
  • Spearmint – luck, abundance
  • Lavender – dreams, peace
  • Green tea – earth energy, zen
  • Blue lotus – lunar energy, feminine
  • Catnip – abundance, calm
  • Hibiscus – love, prosperity

If you are over 21 I HIGHly recommend using cannabis in your craft. Stay safe and happy witching!

Posted in Deities, Godspousing, Spiritual Growth

30 Day Devotional For Your Deity.

Here is a 30 day challenge with you and your deity. For atheist friends you can replace deity with yourself.

Create a secret language with your deity and write a dedication as your introduction in your new language.

Use a song to connect and write down images, feelings, ect you saw/felt.

Write a poem about their correspondences.

Write a devotional hymn of praise.

Have a cup of tea (or tea party) and write down the conversation.

Create affirmations with your deity so that you know you’re loved.

Shadow work: Focus on your shadow self and write down what your deity wants you to work on.

Write a hymn of gratitude.

Use a card spread to connect with your deity and write down the interpretation.

Bake with you deity and write down the recipe and why They chose it.

Write a chant or two that you can use to magically connect with said deity.

Write a haiku or a few of the simple mundane aspects of your relationship.

Create a dance or stretch with a deity and write down the steps as well as how you feel connected to your deity while performing.

Create a playlist then listen to it while writing about your favorite things about your deity.

Write about why your favorite myth about your deity is your favorite.

Are there any pop culture references to your deity? If so write about why you like/dislike their portrayal.

Are there historical characters that interacted with your deity? How do you feel about them?

Who is your deity to you? Matron? Patron? Grandfather like? Write about how you met your deity and your first impressions.

Middle ground. Write about the first time you felt comfortable with your deity.

How is your relationship now and what you hope for the future?

Write a poem about how They recently made you feel.

Give three examples of Them being benevolent.

Give three examples of when They had to give you a wake up call.

Write an informative paragraph about your deity as if you were writing to a completely unknowing novice.

Create a spell together that only works if both of you do it together.

Allow your deity to make a protection contract with you.

Special bonds. Write a bonding devotional where you dedicate yourself to Them (as a devotee, priestess, fan, ect ).

Create a picture that represents Them with devotional poetry.

Go on a walk and talk with your deity. Record the conversation.

Ask for wisdom and guidance and what They expect from you. Write down their answer.

Posted in Deities, Godspousing, Spiritual Growth

How My Deities and Spirits Saved Me Again.

Not exactly the post I wanted to write after being so inactive for so long, but Aphrodite is having me write this. This post doesn’t need a reaction or anything, I’m just supposed to write it.

*Warning this post contains suicidal thoughts and mentions rape and abuse*

Also, note that during this time a lot of my dual sun signs (Sagittarius, Pisces, and Gemini) friends were experiencing similar suicidal thoughts. I am also a Pisces in sun and venus so to any western astrologers you might have noticed this too.

On January 23rd I had another attempt only this time I didn’t want to choose a pretty death. I hadn’t truly attempted since 2016, but all the times prior to the 23rd I wanted a bloodless death for the sake of whomever found me.

This time I didn’t care.

Now let’s look back just a bit over the course of my life to see how this all came about. At the age of 3 I dreamed I was on the top of the stairs of my home. The blue carpet felt as soft as it usually did. It was dawn, but instead of a peach glow that shone through the door’s window, it was a white light. Mind you I had just learned what death was that day after I threw my stuffed horse with a voice box down the stairs. My dad said he was dead and told me my horse would never neigh again.

Maybe it was guilt or envy or a mixture of both but in the dream I flung myself into the white light and I felt myself fade into it like I was one with the light until it became darkness and I woke up. This dream has been reoccurring all my life. To this day I still find comfort in that dream. Death to me is peace.

I learned of the word suicide at age 11 and at 15 my cousin committed suicide and I went to his funeral and saw his daughter give a speech that brought me to tears. I didn’t know them well and yet I cried because of how much she missed him. But it dawned on me then that my cousin was at peace and I envied him.

Throughout my life I have been raped, sexually abused, physically abused, but to be honest the worst was and still is the emotional abuse. It hurts more to me than any physical pain. Oddly I don’t mind being lied to, but all out betrayal and people projecting their expectations on me is the worst. I am the complete opposite of the cliche “sticks and stones can break my bones but words can never harm me.”

But it’s strange. You could call me a fucking retarded piece of shit that doesn’t deserve love in a cool monotone and I’d agree. If you yelled that at me my flight response would kick in and I’d internalize it to such a degree that I’d almost make it a mantra for myself.

I don’t believe there are as many empaths as people claim they are. To be truly empathic in my view you’d need some level of telepathy. 1 in 2 billion people probably have this gift. But mood mimicking? Yup that’s what I’d call myself. Any time I wasn’t mimicking another’s mood I felt worse because then I couldn’t help. There have been times I felt I needed a sense of self, or rather healthy boundaries, with certain people but I couldn’t and still have problems with maintaining that.

On the 23rd of January this year I had already been on my cycle for the whole month (apparently doctors don’t know what’s wrong with me or they’re lying because they know I can’t pay for a proper diagnosis) so emotions were running wild already and a panic attack ensued that night.

That day was pretty good, there wasn’t a specific trigger that threw me into a panic attack it was just me. All the things I internalized just manifested and I wanted to kill myself to find peace.

I called the hotline which I only do when I get to that place. I have had suicidal thought everyday since I was 3 but I only call the hotline when I have a plan to kill myself. I think I call them more than I should. I’ve called them at least 16 times since my 20s, and I’ve paid for therapy, and I’ve read self help books. None of it helps. I think at this point the only thing that could help would be full on amnesia or an IV of serotonin 24/7.

But I will say this. As I was holding my mother’s revolver, this was after my conversation with the suicide hotline, I contemplated doing a Russian Roulette. All the chambers were loaded and I could have taken them out and let only one bullet stay, but I calculated my odds and I didn’t want to be saved.

Until Loki, my godspouse, told me that this wasn’t my time. You see during this panic attack I had deities and spirits all telling me not to do it. Some frantically yelling, some crying, but during those moments I just felt crazy. I still feel crazy. Mentally ill is an understatement. I feel mentally damaged beyond repair. When anyone says I matter or that they love me I don’t believe them. I don’t trust anyone really. Whether intended or not I know the ones I love will hurt me. I especially don’t trust myself. In fact though I’ve tried to give myself self love, I just hate myself. When anyone gives me a compliment I just smile and say thank you for their benefit. It’s awkward to say what I truly think of myself in those moments. So I’m polite.

Even when I laugh on the outside I’m still a sad little piece of shit on the inside. I feel guilty for existing. No therapist or self help book can cure that. So why am I still alive?

Because it’s still not my time to go. Ha, I used to pray that I’d die at the same age of Yeshua (or Yahshua/Jesus) which would be 30-35 years old. I’ve got 2 more years to see if that’s really going to happen. Most days I feel like a ticking time bomb. But if I live beyond 35 years old I’ll be honest I wouldn’t know wtf to do. I could be a millionaire and still not know what to do emotionally with myself.

The gods have said that my death will be violent, but even disease and “natural causes” seem pretty violent to me. The only love I can give myself is hope. I hope that when I die I helped someone by dying. Whether it be one less drain on resources or that I saved someone from a cruel fate by my death.

I’ll conclude this with a talented völva friend of mine who made this message:

https://vm.tiktok.com/TTPdkSxX35/

She did a reading for all of Loki’s devotees and Loki’s love definitely showed through. Most (by most I mean 1/100 times) of the time when people do readings for me I don’t resonate with them. I try to but then I notice I mood mimic and then the reading falls flat. But this one didn’t for some reason aka Loki, and it gave me comfort.

So for those who have read this post all the way through I hope you can overcome your own depression and any insecurities you have. You deserve happiness. Take care and happy witching!

Posted in Deities, Music and Art

Poem for Hekate: Center of the Crossroads.

Keys and crossroads,
In the secrets of two torch's flames,
Are mysterious codes
Even Zeus fears Her many names.

Obsidian ophidians and onyx wolves scatter,
And become dear guides,
To those She thinks matter.

In a voice like fog She confides,
To Her Witches, Priests, and Priestesses,
Trickles of Her mysteries,
Almost like pages of Her diaries.

I hear the wisdom of Hekate's soul,
Dragons confirm Her ancient truth,
In Her scrying bowl,
She sees me wild and uncouth,
She delights in my dancing to Her song in the center of the Crossroads.
Posted in Deities, Energy Work, Oracles, Spiritual Growth

Yet Another Card Spread.

So I came up with this spread because recently on tiktok witchtok drama, some 13 year old kids got tricked by something pretending to be the Greek Gods. These “gods” told them they are giving up their godly powers to mortals…like one named Katie…yeah. So I came up with this spread to see if a trickster is tricking you or are you actually talking to the deity you believe in?

So this spread is kinda funky…

This spread has no order to it. At least as mathematically as I can guess. But yes it is to bring your own chaos energy to show you mean business!

Tricky Trix Spread

  1. This card should represent said deity’s myth.
  2. Their favorite myth about themselves theme wise.
  3. Their least favorite myth about themselves theme wise.
  4. Their interest in you.
  5. What they intend to give you if you work with them.
  6. Qualities of their personality.
  7. The true them (their intentions).
  8. What to expect working with them.

I did this spread with Loki being the trickster of all tricksters I did it twice.

Kitsune Deck.
Light Seers deck.

And it confirmed that Loki is Loki as I knew it would. So if you are questioning who you’re talking to and aren’t aware of a deity’s energy or energy signature this spread could really help you!

Thanks for reading and happy witching!

Posted in Deities, Godspousing, Oracles, Rituals

Deity Tarot Spread Plus New Daily Practice!

I wanted to do more devotional work with my deities so I came up with this spread to help get some prompts started for my devotional journal. So, here is the spread:

Deity Tarot Spread

  1. This is you in the relationship.
  2. This is your general need from said deity.
  3. This is what your relationship entails at the moment.
  4. This is Them and what They want you to know about how They’re feeling.

Here are my results with Artemis, Longmu, and Loki:

And of course I’ll translate my terrible handwriting. *note that reversals are also read with the right side up meanings.*

Artemis:

Cards: Light Seer’s Tarot – Page of Pentacles, 10 of Swords (r), 10 of Cups, Knight of Cups (r).

  1. New opportunities, earth magick, ambitions, beginnings plus good news, financial opportunities.
  2. Recovery, resisting the inevitable, finging hope, healing.
  3. Love, soulmates, harmony, divine connections, wholeness.
  4. Moodiness, protecting the heart, seeking connection, chivalry, romantic.
Overall it shows our divine connection as soulmates. Since I was 16 and did blood magick with Her, even when I ignored Her, She was always there for me. Together we make an unstoppable team. I am forever grateful She chose me and allows me to blossom under Her love and protection. Thank you my lovely Goddess! 

Longmu:

Cards: Chinese Tarot – Ace of Staves (r), Ten of Coins, 4 of Cups (r), The Empress.

  1. Cloudy outlook, fortune, Adventure, decadence.
  2. Riches, safety, family, inheritance, ancestry, home.
  3. New possibilities, new knowledge, weariness, aversion.
  4. Feminine progress, fruitfulness, accomplishment, family, motivating.
This shows my warm and yet exciting relationship with my soul mother. We can be rather tired when it comes to work, but once we have our minds set on something we accomplish it. Home and family mean everything to Her, and I am glad I get to be a part of it! 

Loki:

Cards: The Dragon Tarot – Queen of Cups, Knight of Wands, 8 of Wands (r), King of Cups (r).

  1. Desire, lust, passion.
  2. Dynamic, wonderfully complicated, balanced opposites.
  3. Quickness, speed, haste.
  4. Open with emotions, blunt, honest.
I believe this is about our more private life. Nevertheless, it shows Loki and I have an unbreakable bond full of complex passion. We're quick to get on each other's nerves and quick to forgive. Our relationship is fun yet deep. I'm grateful Loki is mine. 

Now on to my new daily practice. Rune of the day!

Today was Fehu, but I’m actually going to show you my first I started almost a week ago.

Berkana was the rune.

Also wanted to show how my spirituality is doing and to show off my lesbianflag manicure:

Alright well thank you for reading and happy witching!

Posted in Deities, kitchen witchery, Necromancy, Rituals, Spells, Spiritual Growth, Weather and Elements

Dedication Ritual for Hekate with Pisces in Dark Moon. Plus Celebrating SHINee’s Jonghyun’s Birthday!

Tonight I rededicated myself to the Goddess Hekate. She and I have spent quite a few lifetimes together and I’m glad I was finally able to be in the right mindset to work with Her again. Her signs were everywhere after I decided not to work with Her back in 2016. But Her love for me, at least in this lifetime, shows that no matter how one bad time (both in this lifetime and in one other) can turn into something beautiful.

I made some bread for Her (recipe below) while my dog Lucas watched in curiosity. The three candles are all dedicated to spirits, reapers, and ghosts I work with.

I wanted Jonghyun to be a part of the ritual more or less because he kind of asked. Not with words this time but with his aura. I could tell he was wanting some love so naturally it was the perfect time to include him.

We officially celebrated his birthday that morning around 2am-4am (Korean time would have still been the 8th). He got to see what his fortune was from a fortune cookie I got from PF Changs a few months back. Haha I hate these cookies, but him and R find them fun. We watched documentaries on Mormon polygamy and pretty much hung out.

But during the day I wanted to focus on preparing for the ritual with Hekate.

Before cooking with Her during twilight, I did astral travel with Her to Her cave where She gave me a wine colored tea that was very earthy. She then led me out of Her cave and we followed a path until I saw one of my past lives (we’ll call her L) in the woods. She has been astral travelling on her own (she’s the only one I allow to do this) where she has collected fruits and breads as a peace offering.

My spirit children with Kunxi (reaper) made a mess of some Others’ lives and I went there with L and Hekate to mend relations. It was just a situation that got blown out of proportion apparently. So offering these things felt right. I mean what do you do when your kid has a broken heart but you liked their lover? So I told the elder, or one of the main elders, that there was no ill will on my part and hoped they didn’t suffer too much because of them. Naturally I apologized on behalf of my spirit kids (now around 18). The elder told me not to worry and there was no I’ll will on her part. With that we said goodbye and I was ready to cook.

After that then came the bread making in the dark with the dog. After the bread was made it was night and since I had made a weather spell earlier that day to not rain during this time, Sirius (Hekate’s star) shone bright and brilliant as you can see above.

What it was like earlier in contrast to the above pictures.

During the ritual I set my keys, wolf Grimoire, and the bread by the crossroad of my culdisac. I pricked my finger and made a vow to one day become her priestess and to dedicate this life to Her. Earlier that day She told me that while Longmu is indeed my mother Goddess, Hekate is my matron and teacher.

I am excited for the road ahead. Finally able to say I know my path.

Alright now what yall been waiting for. The recipe for my offering bread.

Basic Offering Bread for Hekate:

  • 2 cups all purpose flower
  • 2 cups water
  • 1 large egg
  • Cinnamon powder to taste
  • Garlic powder to taste
  • Garlic salt to taste
  • Minced garlic to taste.
  • 2 table spoons of nutritional yeast.
  • Mix in pyrex dish until batter is smooth.
  • In a small frying pan add roughly 1 tablespoon of olive oil for each flatbread.
  • Cook on medium low.
  • Wait until the edges of the side facing you are crisp. Flip and allow bubbles to form until the other side is cooked.
  • Then enjoy!

Alright, thanks for reading and happy witching!

Posted in Deities, Energy Work, Sigils, Spells

A Look Inside Part 1: My Grimoire.

A LOOK INSIDE will be a series I start with my own in depth descriptions of my craft

Now this is my online Grimoire but my notebook one (or at least one of my official ones) is riddled with riddles just how I like it. I created this language because my spells, magik, and dealings with deities are all my own spirituality. Even if I were to ever be in a coven or marry a woman (much less date one. Steps self lol steps) this information is private just to me. Even if someone were to get the guide, only I would know the grammar of it.

I like the idea, I guess, that some things get to die with me and no one else. Possibly selfish but maybe not. Maybe there are some things only in this life one can feel proud of and no one else has to validate that. I feel that. I don’t care if this post gets likes but I’m happy to share a secret of mine if it helps their mental health.

One doesn’t need the validation of people here. The validation of just doing magik is enough. I was doing magik before I even learned to walk. I was doing magik at 16 just shaving my legs. I was doing magik before I knew it could be too much for some people to handle.

You can create your own magik language simply by learning or noticing grammar rules you like then incorporating letter sounds to an alphabet or make them pictorial.

Sigil magik is heightened when you create your own language.
Contracts between deities can be for both yours and their benefits.
I also included other alphabets in this Grimoire but rest assured I want to keep them as niche as I could get. Pronunciation is more than half the battle.

Hope this post proves that even if you’re not in any witchy community that you really don’t need one to feel validation from deities or spirits or even your ancestors. You can practice with whatever you want and you don’t have to fit someone’s sense of morality. Not even mine. I can say all day that loving others is better than hating, but I know many don’t believe that. So, even still, here is a way if you haven’t already thought about it to write your own spells in your own way.

Happy witching yall!