Basically I’m having a good day. I’d like to do this more often every day. There was a time I did but I fell out of practice. I don’t think I’ll post one everyday, but I’ll post the significant ones.
I never really could be formal. In all honesty the times I’ve tried to it’s failed. I suppose the most formal I’ve ever been was with Yah and Anubis but even then those small formal gestures lifted quickly. Hard to say how exactly and who dropped the formal language first, most likely me, but nevertheless I want to talk about the difference a lot of us witches have with our deities and how gatekeeping is abound in both camps.
Let’s start with my camp. Team who gives a fuck about formalities? While in a lot of ways I see the purpose of being formal, for the most part I don’t. A Goddess or God to me is Someone Whom I want in my life and with my first intention want around forever. So it’s odd to me to be so very grandiose. I guess you can say I like to get to know them as friends before officially working with them. This kind of work depends on personal vs external, but nonetheless if i don’t have a strong connection with that deity we never work together.
I have seen though people take this too far and say in so many words or less that their devotion to said deity out ways another person’s experience. Bull. Devotion is great but many a times I’ve seen deities not want any of their devotees to act as oracles nor enter into any kind of clergy role.
On the flip side. Side let’s be uber formal with our deities, there is too much ritual and too much involved to speak to the gods. Not that the work or ritual doesn’t have it’s merit, but it’s certainly not the only way to communicate with deities. A lot of organized religion and circles do this because at one point said deity liked it that way at the time, but and while tradition is great, one can gatekeep new instruction from said deity by being bogged down by past rituals.
Both sides have to grow to realize that there can be a happy medium. You can be as formal or informal as you see fit. No one defines your relationship to the Divine other than you and the Divine.
That being said, one has to use caution when working with others. If you’re not on the same page then how do expect to grow? You won’t. You’ll be kept down and be prevented from experiencing the full glory of your potential.
When it comes to formalities let the Gods be the deciding factor. Some require specific instructions, others are as free to use informal language as much as you want. It all depends. So this argument in modern witchcraft needs to be put on the back burner. Let’s settle this here that both have merit and use and not everyone fits neatly into ritualistic box nor a lasse-fair relationship with their deity(ies).
Work out with your deities what language and ritual to use works best for you and happy witching!
Today was my grandmother’s funeral, my last remaining grandparent. I have yet to cry but maybe that’s because I’ve prepared for such times. It was strange. The day she died, ironically Groundhog day, I didn’t see her ghost but at the funeral I saw her spirit wander. She was confused and quiet, but she heard the music in my head I was playing for her. She smiled at that. She wore the necklace I made her and her favorite dress that matched. Serendipitous how that worked out. During the service I kept thinking of a memory of when I was 6 years old with her telling me to play the piano that’s now in my living room. There was a porcelain book with painted daisies, her favorite flower, that my mother made for her sitting on the too of the piano. It had been a warm yet breezy autumn morning. As I played for her, my tiny hands rambling on the keys, I eventually found a melody which turned into a song. Possibly my first. I called it Daisies in the Wind. As we buried her I thought of the melody and saw her watching over me. During the last prayer over her grave a gale rushed by and I opened my eyes to see her ghost was gone, like a daisy in the wind. I smiled and said goodbye. I could hear her say she loved me. I smiled and said I loved her too.
Now, for some happier news I went to a metaphysical shop recently and got some stones, a new oracle deck, and these awesome statues!
Anubis likes his chibi-ized self. I wanted to pay homage to Him since He is the one who helped me decide that mortuary school is my career path. He was also there throughout the whole process with my grandmother seeing her die before me and helping me remember all the things she wanted with her in her casket. Kunxi, the former Joseung Saja, also helped a lot. These two are the sweetest with the dead.
Kuan Yin has also been a comfort for me lately. When I saw Her statue I knew I had to get it. She truly is a beautiful deity to love.
I also got myself the Kali Oracle which I love! Kali has been calling to me for ages. Her fierce yet graceful love is something I’ve always been attracted to.
In this reading I did what my inner self needs to focus on and what my outer self needs to focus on. The inner self card is Krishnau and talked about reaching desires through purification of fire. Funny, since my moon sign is the fire sign Sagittarius. It’s a very introspective card allowing myself to experience Kali though the warmth of purifying fire.
The outer self card Kama if Kali focused on seeking pleasure and joy but not in the hedonistic sense, but rather finding joy in self care and dedicating this to Kali as a form of worship. I thought that was perfect. Making beauty from the mundane as a form of offering.
These comings of deities and goings of loved ones is a part of spiritual growth in my opinion. I feel as if I am no longer a caged bird but rather a newly born phoenix rising from the ashes of rebirth. I am excited to see what lays ahead for me with my many deities and spirits to lead me and with my ancestors to guide me.