Posted in Deities, Energy Work, Sigils, Spells

A Look Inside Part 1: My Grimoire.

A LOOK INSIDE will be a series I start with my own in depth descriptions of my craft

Now this is my online Grimoire but my notebook one (or at least one of my official ones) is riddled with riddles just how I like it. I created this language because my spells, magik, and dealings with deities are all my own spirituality. Even if I were to ever be in a coven or marry a woman (much less date one. Steps self lol steps) this information is private just to me. Even if someone were to get the guide, only I would know the grammar of it.

I like the idea, I guess, that some things get to die with me and no one else. Possibly selfish but maybe not. Maybe there are some things only in this life one can feel proud of and no one else has to validate that. I feel that. I don’t care if this post gets likes but I’m happy to share a secret of mine if it helps their mental health.

One doesn’t need the validation of people here. The validation of just doing magik is enough. I was doing magik before I even learned to walk. I was doing magik at 16 just shaving my legs. I was doing magik before I knew it could be too much for some people to handle.

You can create your own magik language simply by learning or noticing grammar rules you like then incorporating letter sounds to an alphabet or make them pictorial.

Sigil magik is heightened when you create your own language.
Contracts between deities can be for both yours and their benefits.
I also included other alphabets in this Grimoire but rest assured I want to keep them as niche as I could get. Pronunciation is more than half the battle.

Hope this post proves that even if you’re not in any witchy community that you really don’t need one to feel validation from deities or spirits or even your ancestors. You can practice with whatever you want and you don’t have to fit someone’s sense of morality. Not even mine. I can say all day that loving others is better than hating, but I know many don’t believe that. So, even still, here is a way if you haven’t already thought about it to write your own spells in your own way.

Happy witching yall!

Posted in Deities, Godspousing, Spells

Just FYI 👻👹🙃👹👻

This is simply a PSA: this person is no longer welcomed to consider themselves these spirits godmother. The relationship has been broken more so on my part. I was a fool for trusting and I was a fool for letting someone that far in. It won’t happen again.

My firm boundary is that these spirits aren’t talked about over the internet as if they are some creatures unworthy of respect. Once I came back into the picture this person used their hurt feelings against me and telling me I was bad and that my quest for power was misguided. I was gatekept to spirits I created with other spirits.

Point being. I’m angry yes, but I have every right to be.

Do I hate this person? No. Do I trust this person? No. But do I want my boundaries respected? Yes.

I’m a simple bitch witch. Mess with me all day. Curse me. I’ll laugh bleeding sweat. Mess with mine, and I’ll raise the fine and blind the sign all for the Divine.

https://spiralinglabyrinth.wordpress.com/2020/05/12/the-kids-are-alright/

Ok so we all get that even us love all folks in witchcraft still get thrown under the bus for things out of their control. It’s fine but also not fine if you get the paradox.

Anyways go follow them if you like. But just note that spirits don’t always get to say what they want when they are forced to make hard decisions that they didn’t want to make in the first place. Let’s all be clear that these spirits have moved on from this person and will not be coming back unless in the form of their trickster selves. They’ve got work to do.

Alright yall! Happy witching!

Posted in Deities, Energy Work, Music and Art, Spells, Spiritual Growth

Kali Gauri DeviJa: TW Depression Poetry

Insane in the brain cant refrain from the pain, hey isnt life a stain on the soul for those with no control? Roll the toll. Deities of my soul.

Let me live or give me an urn that I earned. Burn my soul make me something else. 1000 years burning but at least 1000 learning.

I feel like I am nothing if I felt nothingness exists in the grandness of this royal kindness. But I have no finesse. So much regress. Who am I trying to impress? My dress or these narticitic empresses always making messes they can’t clean

Clean to be mean. Guess I only can love brown eyes with sties, dyes, flies,ryes, my own kind. Truly sad.

Sadder than madder than gladder, guess I’m just fadder dadder who tries to make my life matter. It doesn’t feel zeal.

No zeal to heal. No zeal to feel. Nothing feels real. Everyone loves to steal it’s zeal.

Kali come to me and deal.

Kali help me heal.

Kali help me feel.

Kali meal my hatred

Kali teal.

Kali real.

Kali’s zeal.

Jai Ma Gauri Devi!

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I Don’t Care About Witch Wars

Witch Wars happen because of narcissistic behavior/ Period. As someone with manic depression and to be fair chemical and situational in those regards, I don’t care about anyone’s beliefs hurting mine. I give no duck and no $500,000 crystals. I Ultimately view the more sadder options to this often. I have since the age of 3. I won’t write the word for reader’s courtesy, but let’s just say I understand why I want to be a mortician. There is a very strange idealization of being immortal. In a sense we are and in a sense we’re not. The paradox of life and death.

Witch wars are stupid. Boring. Pointless. Knowledge is power but so is birthright unfortunately. Colorism is stupid. IE true racism. Culture appropriation? That depends. There are some gray lines between flattery and appropriation. But is hatred really worth it? I say it’s boring. Literally the most boring thing to hear about honestly. Super bored. So boring it retards the human race. THAT WORD CAN ONLY BE USED IF YOU WERE EVER CALLED SLOW. Other than that there are other things I wish to discuss.

DO NOT COME ON MY PAGE AND TALK ABOUT RACISM AND OR SLAVERY UNLESS YOU DONATE to:

https://humantraffickinghotline.org/training-resources/referral-directory

Other than that everyone else can comment whatever they want. My birthday is also coming up and I would love it if any of my followers or want to be followers would donate. There are many problems even within charities but anyone can eventually make peace with PTSD. If therapy is not an option there are always books and social media to help cope.

ANYONE WHO READS THIS IS ALSO SUBGEGATED TO COPY WRITE LAWS. YOU WILL NOT CHANGE ANY WORDING OF THIS POST AND WILL NOT SHARE THIS POST TO ANYONE WHO IS A REGISTERED SEX OFFENDER. IF FOUND OUT THE FBI WILL BE INVOLVED.

Now that I have your attention your hatred can be valid, but it will ultimately hold you back. ESPECIALLY self hatred. Don’t be that person that says “why do you hate me?” when someone asks for an apology. You won’t win that way with yourself and especially not with others.

If you feel that way get self help books and or therapy. Therapy looks different for everyone but be sure you have completed some psychological testing. If you use any spirits in said posts of mine feel free to have fun with trickster spirits. At this point I think they’re cute. Just adorable.

So, again,. witch wars are stupid. I’m bored with it all. Go back to whatever practice you were doing before you read this post.

Posted in Deities, Godspousing, Music and Art

Finally Finished Aphrodite!!

So I started this project about a month ago and it took me that long to figure out the color combinations I wanted.

A little recap on mine and Aphrodite’s relationship. I have been working with Her for over a decade and our relationship grew to be lovers. Since I have never seen anyone marry Aphrodite but still use the term godspouse I’m going to assume Hephaestus to be Her only legal spouse, as seen by the contracts of Hera, but naturally She has lovers. She and I have two demi-goddess children (though they are adults now) Delaphina goddess of finding one’s soulmate (note not always a sexual relationship) and Daemura who is still trying to find her passion. Both of them have purple/violet eyes so I included that into Aphrodite’s dress.

I wanted to give her rose gold hair but I think I did my best since I had to make rose gold rather than buy it. Plus, I bet itd be hella expensive for rose gold gouache.

Nevertheless Aphrodite loves Her statue and that’s all that matters! I hope to do more of these this year! So stay tuned for that. If I get good enough I’ll start making to sell but I think I need to work out some stuff first.

Thanks for reading and happy witching!

Posted in Deities, Godspousing

Godspousery: WTF is it?

Dear Reader, You may have heard of the term ‘godspouse’ and wondered what on earth it means. You may have seen some people refer to themselves as ‘godspouses’ and wondered if their grip on reality was slipping. You may have seen the numerous posts referring to godspouses as overly imaginative/obsessed fangirls of a certain deity. […]

Godspousery: WTF is it?

A good post on Godspousery!

Posted in Deities, Necromancy, Spiritual Growth

Of Comings and Goings.

Today was my grandmother’s funeral, my last remaining grandparent. I have yet to cry but maybe that’s because I’ve prepared for such times. It was strange. The day she died, ironically Groundhog day, I didn’t see her ghost but at the funeral I saw her spirit wander. She was confused and quiet, but she heard the music in my head I was playing for her. She smiled at that. She wore the necklace I made her and her favorite dress that matched. Serendipitous how that worked out. During the service I kept thinking of a memory of when I was 6 years old with her telling me to play the piano that’s now in my living room. There was a porcelain book with painted daisies, her favorite flower, that my mother made for her sitting on the too of the piano. It had been a warm yet breezy autumn morning. As I played for her, my tiny hands rambling on the keys, I eventually found a melody which turned into a song. Possibly my first. I called it Daisies in the Wind. As we buried her I thought of the melody and saw her watching over me. During the last prayer over her grave a gale rushed by and I opened my eyes to see her ghost was gone, like a daisy in the wind. I smiled and said goodbye. I could hear her say she loved me. I smiled and said I loved her too.

Now, for some happier news I went to a metaphysical shop recently and got some stones, a new oracle deck, and these awesome statues!

Chibi Anubis is so precious!
Turquoise Kuan Yin is so pretty and serene.

Anubis likes his chibi-ized self. I wanted to pay homage to Him since He is the one who helped me decide that mortuary school is my career path. He was also there throughout the whole process with my grandmother seeing her die before me and helping me remember all the things she wanted with her in her casket. Kunxi, the former Joseung Saja, also helped a lot. These two are the sweetest with the dead.

Kuan Yin has also been a comfort for me lately. When I saw Her statue I knew I had to get it. She truly is a beautiful deity to love.

I also got myself the Kali Oracle which I love! Kali has been calling to me for ages. Her fierce yet graceful love is something I’ve always been attracted to.

In this reading I did what my inner self needs to focus on and what my outer self needs to focus on. The inner self card is Krishnau and talked about reaching desires through purification of fire. Funny, since my moon sign is the fire sign Sagittarius. It’s a very introspective card allowing myself to experience Kali though the warmth of purifying fire.

The outer self card Kama if Kali focused on seeking pleasure and joy but not in the hedonistic sense, but rather finding joy in self care and dedicating this to Kali as a form of worship. I thought that was perfect. Making beauty from the mundane as a form of offering.

These comings of deities and goings of loved ones is a part of spiritual growth in my opinion. I feel as if I am no longer a caged bird but rather a newly born phoenix rising from the ashes of rebirth. I am excited to see what lays ahead for me with my many deities and spirits to lead me and with my ancestors to guide me.

Posted in Altars, Deities

My Current Altar and Altar Spaces.

Just wanted to show my current altar and the daily work I’m doing.

General altar allowing all the elements as offerings to deities.
Altar for ancestors and spirits, ghosts, and reapers I work with.
Unfinished statue of Aphrodite along with a necklace I’ve been working on for her. Lol I think I need more shells.
My pop culture paganisms is coming through. Wishing everyone on this altar peace and success.
Mini spaces
For the Fae. Necklace I broke to make a pendulum for Danu.
Altar for dragons
Active spell jars
Grimoire, prayer book, oracles, cast iron teapot I use as a cauldron, Buddha, my ceramic wand, and lucky flamingo.
Scrying bowl and pendulums

Stones, rings for rituals, candles for deities and the Fae.
Elemental offerings
Some of my stones
My sword. It’s sharpened thanks to Anupet and is actually Rukia’s sword from Bleach.
Candles for Loki, the Fae, and Aphrodite
Deity or Spirit of the week to guide me. Kuan Yin is super compassionate and lovely to work with.
Posted in Deities, Godspousing

All About Lugh

Though Lugh, or Lug, is not a deity I normally work with I’ll be working more closely with Him in the future. One of my spirit sons, K we’ll call him, needs direction and a patron of his own. K’s father, a former reaper named Kunxi, and I both agreed Lugh would be the perfect match to help our son fufill his potential. I will give more updates on that front, but in the meantime here are some facts about Lugh that made us come to the decision:

  • Lugh is the God of nobility and justice.
  • God of oaths.
  • Also, a trickster God and well Loki (to whom I am godspoused to) suggested Him.
  • A great warrior.
  • A God of the arts and magik (to which K excels at).
  • A great smith.

I will be researching offerings to Lugh so if anyone has a good resource that would be great. In the Celtic pantheon I work with Danu and the Morrigan but have also met the Goddess Oonagh whom I really enjoy getting to know. Thus far, I believe Lugh will be the first God in the Celtic pantheon I will meet. I am both excited and nervous as that is expected. But I am looking forward to updating what happens!

Thank you for reading and happy witching!